I love an excuse to celebrate most anything.
But I have a really big birthday this week,
and something happened on Sunday
that has me celebrating much more than just the number.
Sunday I happened into a fascinating conversation
with someone on the opposite side of the political perspective.
This doesn’t happen often.
I live in blue country.
We could have spent our time defending our points of view.
But that would have been so boring.
What was fascinating to me was how we’d gotten there in the first place.
That’s when I had my birthday ah-ha.
You see, as kid I was pretty fearful.
Something bad happened to me when I was 4.
And we moved every year until I was 9.
New schools, new teachers, new unwritten rules to decipher.
So I was a careful child, and more than a little anxious.
If I could somehow get it all just right, then I would feel a little safer.
I got good at making the safe choices.
But the fear still lingered.
It always does… until it’s unmasked.
OK, so back to Sunday…
Talking with this quite brilliant man,
I realized that my political views
came from my own personal experience with fear.
I’d never considered that!
Turns out, everyone on the right or the left wants to feel safe.
It’s just our strategies that differ.
But looking at fear,
Learning how to unmask it instead of falling prey to it,
is what I’ve loved about growing older!
Because it’s fear that limits joy.
And no matter our age, joy is what everyone wants in life!
So… tonight I’ll be telling my own story,
talking about how fear ruled my life,
…and how I’ve come to recognize and disarm it when it still tries.
This is what I’m celebrating on this BIG birthday
Instead of wasting even a second bemoaning my not-so-young body.
If you’d like to be a part of this conversation tonight – Tuesday – at 9:15 EDT,
just friend me on FB
and ask to join Divining Beauties, my secret group just for women.
but later this month I’ll be hosting a webinar and inviting you to join in the convo.)
I’d love you to come celebrate with me!
Because making friends with my fear
is what has grown me into who I want to be in the world.
PS… If you’d like to go a little deeper on this life adventure unmasking fear, and replacing it with a deeper turn-on — real joy — you might like to join me on retreat in Mexico this January. But FYI, Friday is the last day for early bird pricing, so click here to find out more.
Here’s another blog I wrote a few summers ago about facing down the fear, if your appetite is whetted…
Maybe it’s just paying attention
And choosing to participate
Really being in whatever I’m doing.
Maybe it’s a practice, really, this attentiveness…
this responsibility to what I feel, right now.
Being awake to my body and my emotional life.
Being affected – by life, work, a lover, parents, children.
Noticing what is moving in me.
And noticing my hesitation,
when I back away from being real in order to be nice.
Or when I am afraid to hold a gaze.
Being free is not holding back.
Freedom isn’t indulging in reactivity
or spewing emotionality …
That’s being bound to the old.
I’m not free there.
Being free is being true.
Allowing myself all of me.
And everyone else every last bit of themselves.
I’m playing in the the-a-tre of free-dom this week. Asking these questions and watching what comes.
With 9 other explorers and you, the audience, if you’d like.
Meet someone dressed in a vibrant color on a corner in Great Barrington.
Be led into an exploration of freedom and intimacy.
My kind of adventure, and yours, perhaps, adored ones!